181205

is it just me that always feel so down n tired of my own life or is it normal?well maybe i'm just mentally ill..omg..SOS!!lala..

ny,

bored

111205

6 more mths to ord!!!!!!!!!!!!haiz..6 mths is like super long la..after all i've been in ns for only 1yr 8mths lor...sigh..gonna break down very soon if supervisors dun give nsfs the breathing space that they are seriously deprived of..dead serious...haiz..but wad to do..they dun seem to understand wad we're going thru..why......
juz when i thot my back was recovering, i can feel the pain in my lower back again as i'm writing this..wth man..speaking of back problem..wad's with the injury report man..really dun feel like doing but i duno how to bring that up to my supervisor (a certain ssg ng)..his attitude towards nsf has changed dramatically n i still duno who did what to impose such a peculiar change in his mindset that nsf are trying to slack their way thru..i mean maybe some of us are thinking of doing that..but that's because there's nth for us to do n that we're not assigned jobs to do..

ny,

jaded

041205

i dun feel good now because:

1. i'm suffering from weekend blues (new term eh?)..
2. my back cant seem to stop hurting..
3. i cant run now due to my irritating back pain..
4. there's no one to entertain me..
5. i'm stuck at home listening to radio..
6. i feel so lost..
7. i dun have a goal to work towards..
8. my future looks very bleak..
9. i'm very bored now..
10. i'm so bored that i'm doing this..
11. i cant think of anymore stupid reasons to not feel good..

someone help me please!!will that be you?SOS..............

ny,

out

011205

finally seen the specialist.. was diagnosed with a bulging disc which initially i thot was not anything serious..as the readings tt i find on the net seem to suggest tt it is very common for people to have bulging discs..BUT..the first thing the doctor actually asked me was ' are u happy with ur unit?'..haha..was kinda stunned..it doesn't take a genius to know wad he was implying i guess..i answered with a 'yes' n was given a very long attend 'b' status..sigh..
went to see the camp MO for a medical review the nxt day (281105)..he asked for my pess status n my vocation and said 'i will have to downgrade u'..haiz..n i told him i dun wanna downgrade..thus was given 3 mths of attend 'b' status..
shld i downgrade or shld i not?i'm confused..sigh.....

ny,

out